Friday, February 20, 2009
Was walking Around Tampines the shopping centers while waiting for CC to call me .
Meeting him st bugis therefore decided to wasting time in tampines .
Bring a lot of memories in that place .
Felt very regretted ? i suppose .
Waslking in a place where i don't want to be alone at .
Remembered the rushing of time from tampines to airport to see the choir members .
But was too late that time .
And a lot more , i really hope to have all these sweet memories back happening again ?
Haiz...I know you still got contact him and therefore i would not say anything .
Late reply at 1+am show me that you are chatting with him like what we do last time .
But nothing can change everything .
I think i should not joke anymore .
Perhaps being quiet and listen is a better choice to joke around .
Joking to me is just to let me have a period of time , to not be remind of the unhappiness .
But to think , if people don't understand why am i talking so much crap .
Then only by that mindset , will only bring wildful thinkings of my nonsense , and cause unhappiness .
And therefore , i think keeping quiet is a better choice to me .
Although it is not my style and it would be hurtful to me being reminded of unhappiness .
I still think it is a better way .
It's been very long since i last really be happy i can say .
For now , i can only walk-one-step-count-one-step ( in Chinese ) .
There is nothing i can do .
Yes , i now is walking in spiritual higher in steps and everything .
Being able to be like last time , standing film in everything .
Being quiet and let God change me to become one .
For this cell group , i must change to be quiet asap .
Last night , when i reach home , i was thinking that maybe it is better for me to go to the other small group ? which is easier for me to commiuncate there ?
I don't know .
personally , i think Wei Hao has been a good discipler to me .
Now , i am very confuse i shall say .
If i want to stay , i should change to quiet person myself .
If i want to joke , i should change small group to prevent hurting others .
I Don't Know !
I shall not be alone, yes i wont ; 8:24 PM
