Don't know why but things has been negative to me this few days ...
Expience stomachache for the whole of afternoon and evening ...
Best friend ignore me ...
Parent went out ...
No one take care of me except God ...
Next week N level , afraid of poor results and go ITE ...
Need comfort and encouragement from best friend ...
And there you ignore me and go out or even spend time with him ...
Are you still my best friend ? or not ?
Perhaps i have been unreasonable to you but you make me to ...
Why is it so hard to even talk to you now ?
Always when i called you , you would be with him and even chatting with him no matter what things you do , would included him inside ...
When i msg you , ask you something , most of the time you would not reply until i called you ...
Is it because you want to hide things from me ?
We been best friend since sec 2 and agreed to be honest with each other to be close ...
But now , you changed and after i said you for the past 3 weeks , you did not change at all ...
Saw a show yesterday , 'i would understand and just do as you wish' , i have feeling too , i am a human too ...
Now you are like a complete 2 different person ...
You just break your own record , watching movie with someone that you know for only 1 and a half months ...
Where has your understanding went to ?
Or am i was just been use by you to help you during hard times until now ?
Looks like it does not matter now anyway ...
No matter what i said now would not change anything ...

All i can say is if you continue like that , our friendship may flew off ...
To think that you would not even bother to come and read my blog as you are too busy to do this ...
A bit no point to post it but i just want to share my thinking out since no one i would share it to ...

2 years of friendship is in your hands ...
Destroy it or not , your choice ...
I tried to hold it since the start of november and disappoint me all the way until now ...
I run out of energy to hold it anymore ...

Sorry to say this but I Give Up !
If i continue , you would think that i am unreasonable and so on ...
I still respect you and therefore i did not end this myself but to let you yourself do it ...
To think that the only way to be back is that you would become the old one i know ...
But looks like i am running out of time for you ...
As results are coming out and you leaving secondary school ...
If i pass N levels , will you be the one of them i share the joy with ? Or are you busy with your friends and the new one ...
Once you leave , my timetable and yours would be different and i don't think that we can even communicate anymore ...
Maybe i just too naive , people said that some things can't be the same again ...

By the end of this month ,
Would it be a farewell ? Or back as usual ?